I am going to drop kick the next person who tells me that they are ~*a little OCD*~ straight into the next century. My debilitating disorder is not your cutesy quirk. You don't get to make light of something that causes me absolute anguish. I don't say that I'm a little asthmatic because I get winded climbing … Continue reading Peeling skin: on being “a little OCD”
Y'all, it is World Suicide Prevention Day. While it's a probably trite thing to say, from the bottom of my heart I want you to know that life gets better. It is so worth living, and happiness (or, at the very least, passive contentedness) is out there, even if you can't see it yet. Some … Continue reading Make sure you stop to see the weird bugs
It has been increasingly difficult lately to give myself the space to be a human being. I am not inclined to be patient, I have no desire to be strong for the sake of strength, and I would mostly like to succumb to a depression nap, almost all of the time. Showing myself a little … Continue reading I’m positive.
Depression bites, for the obvious reasons. If I have to be sad, I wish it at least had a cause, some sort of rhyme or reason I could point to as the source of the heaviness. I have a good life: a beautiful-wonderful-charming partner who loves me and does the dishes; a big family that … Continue reading Making Piles
Connie died a year ago today. Healing was difficult before, even though I was able to rely on her for support and guidance, and in her absence I've felt a unique sense of hollowness. I'm used to feeling empty. Overcoming the emptiness, the hopelessness, was something that Connie and I struggled with for years. The … Continue reading Bittersweet Anniversaries
I commit at least one recovery sin per day, and usually more than one. More often than not, the question of what I want for dinner fills me with existential dread. Having meals with people I don't know makes me want to bolt for the door and run far, far away. Sometimes, my food anxiety … Continue reading Recovery Sins
Misrepresentation of the Causes of Eating Disorders The first of the major issues I have with pop culture NEDA Week is the rampant misrepresentation of the causes of eating disorders or disordered eating behaviors. Popular depictions of eating disorder development will have you believe that they stem entirely from a lack of confidence in one's … Continue reading NEDA Week Qualm #1