The alarm goes off at 6:15, brimming with high hopes, sing-songing good intentions to get up, exercise, start the coffee, read the news, put another row of half doubles on the sloppy scarf I'm crocheting. I silence it and stare at the wall. Still dark. Too cold. I am too proud to be defeated by … Continue reading November
I am seasonally affected like how some people are deeply moved by grand scale tragedies that don't directly involve them. The nausea, the grief, the constant refreshing of the CNN page, the sinking like the end is nigh and this... this is what the world has come to. The world has come to autumn, affectionately … Continue reading First frost
He was a stranger, and he knew which car in the parking lot at work was hers. She knew that he'd been watching her, but only because of the notes he left on her windshield. He knows who he is, and he is not ashamed of himself. He knows what he did, and he doesn't … Continue reading A shortlist of men I wish that I could hex, but I just don’t have the energy
I am going to drop kick the next person who tells me that they are ~*a little OCD*~ straight into the next century. I don't say that I'm a little asthmatic when I get winded climbing a lot of stairs, because that would be totally ridiculous and insulting to people who have to deal with … Continue reading Peeling skin: on being “a little OCD”
Y'all, it is World Suicide Prevention Day. While it's a probably trite thing to say, from the bottom of my heart I want you to know that life is so worth living, and happiness (or, at the very least, passive contentedness) is out there, even if you can't see it yet. Some disclaimers: yes, life is … Continue reading Make sure you stop to see the weird bugs
It has been increasingly difficult lately to give myself the space to be a human being. I am not inclined to be patient, I have no desire to be strong for the sake of strength, and I would mostly like to succumb to a depression nap, almost all of the time. Showing myself a little … Continue reading I’m positive.
The first day at THE Big Fancy University™ has officially come and gone, and I have already acquired an education. Among the many things I have learned today, there are a few takeaways that really stand out: People on 315 don't like it when you maintain a safe following distance with the car in front … Continue reading Hang on, Sloopy